Starting yesterday, I am ditching the bad habits and directing my focus once again towards excelling as a musician, student, and teacher. I gave a lot of thought to the fact that my junior high students would not look up to me as they did before if they knew the person I am now.
I now only party on Friday and Saturday nights.
I will not get “blackout” drunk anymore.
I will not buy weed again until I have a steady job.
I will finish all of my immediate work before going out.
I will practice horn 2-3 hours a day, increasing productivity as well as session duration as my mental and physical stamina increase.
Today was a good start, as I did excellent and dedicated work in the practice room, but I have a long way to go. As I keep reminding myself- “Rome was not built in a day”.
I forced myself to take this seriously by telling my close friends all the above changes so they may hold me accountable and support me when I falter. I’m going to become a musician worthy of studying with these incredible artists, a teacher worthy of working alongside my inspiring mentors, and the man those kids at Apollo strived to impress.
I have had many setbacks and veers along my path to success in the past, but the first half of this semester proved to host some of the most shaking.
Time to confront and conquer my demons.
you chug a fifth of alcohol by yourself & everyone around you is too busy cheering to wonder how empty you had to be in order to do it
1. Your skin may never be perfect, and that’s okay.
2. Life is too short not to have the underwear, the coffee, and the haircut you want.
3. Everyone (including your family, your coworkers, and your best friend) will talk about you behind your back, and you’ll talk about them too. It doesn’t mean you don’t love each other.
4. It’s okay to spend money on things that make you happy.
5. Sometimes without fault or reason, relationships deteriorate. It will happen when you’re six, it will happen when you’re sixty. That’s life.