Been creeping on and catching up with old friends these past two weeks. Interesting to see how much three years changes you, even only two for a few of them. Yet only Chris has his shit together. He showed me some of his photography worked and I was truly impressed..he’s discovered his peace. He still keeps the skating spirit alive that I felt when that was a big part of my life. Everyone else, though, is just about pussy money & weed. I still have the urge to hang out with them and wonder that mindset feels like after being gone for so long. But I know that the fun they’re having now will expire. I must tell myself that. I believe what I’ve accomplished this year, quitting smoking, drinking, changing my circle of friends, raising my grades, learning trombone, making PIP, etc..has set me on a path to success and deep happiness I hadn’t imagined before. The journey is difficult- it would no doubt be easier for me to relax on everything and spend my days and nights getting high and going on adventures. But what I believe now is that I’m setting myself up for a better future with the changes I’ve made and continue to make. When I hear stories about the wild party I missed, the chill spot I won’t get to smoke at, or the thrilling antics I haven’t been a part of, I feel envious and maybe even a bit regretful. But when I hear Ben play his horn, see the ease with which his conducts, and the way he holds Emily’s hand and talks so sweetly about her, I know I have a better gig ready for me if I will just keep hanging on.
My favorite horn duet, wonderful piece of music. Considering buying it- not sure if I could find another horn in the area able to place this with me, let alone play it myself!
Almost done with these last difficult days of junior year. Just got to push til the end, I’m going to look back on this year and be damn proud of how hard I worked.
This guy at my school shows up every day with like a fake wolf tail clipped to his back belt loop, and I always see him running from class to class and jumping over things and he looks so happy to exist and sometimes he brings a lil wolf puppet with him and he makes it run along next to him on the strings
I’m just like u go wolf kid live ur dreams